6-12-05


 VSyeira (2:17:48 AM): IC?
XlonecrysoliteX (2:19:29 AM): alright then...IC
XlonecrysoliteX (2:20:37 AM): ::Rysina went over and picked up the lone starjewel, placing it in her pocket. She was beginning to seriously doubt her decision::
VSyeira (2:21:26 AM): ::Kyle moved over towards her:: That's all that happened? He thrashed you around and left?
XlonecrysoliteX (2:23:59 AM): ::she looked abruptly at him; she had almost forgot he was there:: No...he didn't *just* do that. He changed ::her tone would seem a little cold, her eyes narrowing a little at him::
VSyeira (2:25:27 AM): He changed? What do you mean? Rysina..?
XlonecrysoliteX (2:27:25 AM): He isn't Jael anymore! This is what happened back in Gaelon, except this time, I triggered it. It's all my fault! Why did I listen...
VSyeira (2:29:21 AM): How could have you triggered it?
XlonecrysoliteX (2:31:21 AM): I do not know...Why don't you find and ask him yourself? ::she put her back to him, frustrated::
XlonecrysoliteX (2:32:27 AM): ::she sighed and put her hand in her pocket. Her voice softened:: I guess I hurt him enough...
VSyeira (2:35:06 AM): ::He slowly took a step forward towards her:: Look, he was already twisted. Stop blaming yourself.
XlonecrysoliteX (2:36:11 AM): No he wasn't. He was fine until I ruined everything ::she snapped::
VSyeira (2:36:35 AM): (gonna switch to underline. bold is annoying me)
VSyeira (2:37:45 AM): Rysina, listen to me. Tatl probably got to him first. And he could still be changing to the conditions of this world--Earth. Besides, how did you--how could you have ruined everything?
XlonecrysoliteX (2:39:22 AM): If I hadn't broken things off, I could have helped him, especially now that Tatl is gone.
XlonecrysoliteX (2:40:53 AM): Look, I shouldn't have asked you to help...this is between Jael and I
VSyeira (2:41:01 AM): He could've killed you if you had or hadn't.
VSyeira (2:41:07 AM): You need help. You both do.
XlonecrysoliteX (2:42:56 AM): Well, now he's going to try to kill me...I guess I did the right thing ::sarcasm is in her voice::
VSyeira (2:45:37 AM): People change whether you want them too or not. Jael's predicament and situation...you couldn't have know.
VSyeira (2:45:47 AM): The state of mind he's in...
XlonecrysoliteX (2:47:09 AM): ::she went back to a serious tone:: Then I will change with him.
XlonecrysoliteX (2:47:30 AM): I have been just as twisted as he has
VSyeira (2:47:48 AM): What? Rysina, no. Don't do this.
XlonecrysoliteX (2:48:45 AM): Why not? He's all I have...and now I've broken his heart. I have to try and fix things
VSyeira (2:51:47 AM): Hasn't he broken yours?
VSyeira (2:52:04 AM): It isn't your job to fix things all the time, dammit!
XlonecrysoliteX (2:53:28 AM): And how would you know? You do not know me!
VSyeira (2:54:29 AM): You won't let me. I'm just trying to help. There's no need to be defensive
XlonecrysoliteX (2:55:31 AM): ::Rysina took a deep breath:: ...You're right. I don't know what is wrong with me
XlonecrysoliteX (2:57:56 AM): He's been the reason for me to live for so long...the reason that I am alive today...I never would have made it if it was not for him. I cannot let him go like this
VSyeira (3:06:12 AM): Sounds to me it's the reverse. You told me this isn't the first time he went..well...ape shit. He HURT you the last time he went schizo.
XlonecrysoliteX (3:09:03 AM): ::she leaned her back against the wall and slid down to the floor to sit:: It wasn't his fault, though
VSyeira (3:09:46 AM): And it wasn't -- isn't -- yours either. ::His eyes followed her form::
XlonecrysoliteX (3:11:22 AM): But I can't let him go! I just can't!
XlonecrysoliteX (3:13:44 AM): I...I will take him back to the elven lands. He will get better! He'll return to his normal self..
VSyeira (3:14:12 AM): How sure can you be?
VSyeira (3:14:24 AM): Aren't those Lands haunted or whatever nowadays?
XlonecrysoliteX (3:15:12 AM): We can go somewhere else...on the outskirts of the cities
XlonecrysoliteX (3:16:50 AM): It's been a little over a year...he cannot permanently be changed this way. I can get him back. I have to
VSyeira (3:17:34 AM): ::Kyle cringed inwardly at the sight of her. She was beginning to sound worse than Murdock. She was in denial:: Rysina...
XlonecrysoliteX (3:18:25 AM): ::she stared at the floor, thinking, plotting::
XlonecrysoliteX (3:19:51 AM): ::she'd shake her head, moving onto her next idea::
VSyeira (3:22:11 AM): ::He knelt beside her:: Rysina, come back to me.
XlonecrysoliteX (3:23:18 AM): ::it'd take her a moment to even register that he said something. She glanced up at him::
XlonecrysoliteX (3:24:38 AM): Do you have an idea?
VSyeira (3:25:20 AM): An idea for what? To help Jael, you mean?
XlonecrysoliteX (3:25:53 AM): Yes. I need to get him back
VSyeira (3:28:14 AM): ::He offered her his hand:: Here, first let's get you off the floor
XlonecrysoliteX (3:29:35 AM): ::she'd cautiously put her hand out::
VSyeira (3:30:53 AM): It's okay ::he promised her::
XlonecrysoliteX (3:32:59 AM): ::she'd stand with his help and then start to get lost in thought again::
VSyeira (3:36:30 AM): ::Kyle's brow furrowed:: Ry, ::he said carefully::
XlonecrysoliteX (3:37:11 AM): What? ::she asked, slightly annoyed::
VSyeira (3:39:53 AM): Would Tatl have anything to do with Jael's behavior?
XlonecrysoliteX (3:40:40 AM): ::she nodded:: That's why we could go back to the elven lands...
VSyeira (3:42:20 AM): Don't you think he still has a hold over those lands as well?
XlonecrysoliteX (3:43:13 AM): Then we'll take him out, again and again if we must
VSyeira (3:46:52 AM): ::He didn't feel comfortable with the idea::
VSyeira (3:47:08 AM): How about we get some food and then do... thinking afterwards?
XlonecrysoliteX (3:47:56 AM): ...Food? I don't know if I can eat at a time like this..
VSyeira (3:49:24 AM): At least something then. Your mind I'm sure has to be on overload
XlonecrysoliteX (3:50:10 AM): ::she sighed:: Fine
VSyeira (3:51:07 AM): Hey, we'll get him back, I promise.
XlonecrysoliteX (3:52:39 AM): I hope so... ::she'd walk to the door and open it, allowing him to go first::
VSyeira (3:53:07 AM): ::Cautiously, he left the house::
XlonecrysoliteX (3:54:08 AM): ::she'd slowly follow him to the truck, getting in on the passenger side once again::
VSyeira (3:59:01 AM): ::He sighed softly to himself. He wasn't sure what he should do--or hell, what he COULD do. The pit of his stomach told him Ry wasn't exactly the same as she was before she entered the house::
VSyeira (4:01:27 AM): So where do you think he could've gone off to?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:02:20 AM): ::she did not even bother with the seatbelt because she almost didn't even care. A part of her would rather her to die than to go on this endless search for "peace," if it even really existed::
XlonecrysoliteX (4:02:55 AM): (would she have any kind of feeling or sense as to where j/k went? HEH)
VSyeira (4:04:10 AM): (hmm. she might feel a tug, very faint one, in whatever connection they have left.)
XlonecrysoliteX (4:04:57 AM): I might, but I am not sure
VSyeira (4:05:48 AM): You're not sure?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:06:20 AM): I can feel him slightly, but I cannot tell where he is exactly
XlonecrysoliteX (4:07:37 AM): Kyle, do you have a gun on you? ::she asked, randomly::
VSyeira (4:07:45 AM): Why?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:10:49 AM): ::Rysina hesitated:: Can you...kill me? I don't want to go all psychotic on you again...and...it'd be easier. I know what I'm trying to do is hopeless, but something inside me is trying to take over again. I don't want it to..so..please.
VSyeira (4:12:24 AM): Something inside of you?
VSyeira (4:12:33 AM): ::He started driving, finally::
VSyeira (4:12:43 AM): Like what? Like what's happening with your friend?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:13:07 AM): ::she slowly nodded::
XlonecrysoliteX (4:14:51 AM): The last time it took control of me, I even turned on Jael. I do not want any of it to happen again
VSyeira (4:15:28 AM): There has to be another... alternative than to killing you.
XlonecrysoliteX (4:16:41 AM): Maybe..
XlonecrysoliteX (4:17:09 AM): Kyle, have you ever been in love? ::she asked again randomly::
VSyeira (4:18:03 AM): Sure I have. ...why?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:18:35 AM): Does it seem worth it?
VSyeira (4:18:49 AM): Does what seem worth it? Love?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:19:39 AM): Do you think it's worth going through all the trouble of telling the person how you feel and then trying to work at the relationship?
VSyeira (4:22:55 AM): ::He seemed to think at that thought:: If the relationship is...good enough. And of course if it is love I'm feeling for the other, yes it is.
VSyeira (4:23:54 AM): Is that what you feel for Jael?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:24:44 AM): Yeah.. ::she said very quietly::
XlonecrysoliteX (4:25:35 AM): Only now do I realize that I could have acted and done things a lot better..I shouldn't have tried to corner him with his feelings, I guess. I should have just been there for him..
VSyeira (4:26:42 AM): Sometimes love is enough. Or should be.
VSyeira (4:27:05 AM): We're not perfect, no matter what or who you may be, Rysina. None of us have the answers...
XlonecrysoliteX (4:27:54 AM): But by the time we have the answers; how we feel or what we need to do, it is always too late
VSyeira (4:28:33 AM): Not always, no. It may seem like that, but it isn't always the case
XlonecrysoliteX (4:29:39 AM): But I did get another chance...a couple. But it never seem to have mattered..
VSyeira (4:30:32 AM): Maybe that's how you perceived things at the time.
XlonecrysoliteX (4:31:47 AM): No! That's the way things are now! I finally did tell him how I felt, and now he is gone again..One of us was always gone
VSyeira (4:33:57 AM): ::He looked at her:: How about you start from the begininng. Tell me what went in exactly before I showed up. What did you say?
XlonecrysoliteX (4:35:04 AM): Before you showed up?
VSyeira (4:36:20 AM): At the door
XlonecrysoliteX (4:38:10 AM): Well...I told him I could not be in a relationship anymore...that he doesn't help me to know what's going on...you know how he worries so much
VSyeira (4:38:34 AM): ::Kyle nods his head::
XlonecrysoliteX (4:39:41 AM): ::explains how Jael was crying and became defensive, blaming Tatl and him (Kyle) and gradually changed into "Jael"/Kael::
VSyeira (4:40:50 AM): Oh my god, ::he whispered:: I'm sorry. He's insecure
VSyeira (4:42:10 AM): ::Kyle shook his head. The way he pictured Jael in his mind from Ry's description made him think of the Fab 5 on queer eye for the straight guy::
XlonecrysoliteX (4:43:10 AM): And now that I realize I was wrong and want to take it all back, I know that I cannot...It's too late
VSyeira (4:44:14 AM): Nothing's too late
VSyeira (4:44:27 AM): Sometimes you just might have to fight to get what you want
XlonecrysoliteX (4:44:53 AM): OOC
VSyeira (4:45:01 AM): ooc